The game of individuation
[For many years I've experienced bouts of depression that can stop me in my tracks. These notes were taken during one such episode.]
Question: What is this latest depression about?
Answer: Individuation. Separation. Isolation. Division. Inadequacy. Insecurity.
You've been batting around this idea for many years: “In the beginning was… individuation.”
That's why you (humans) feel so isolated, ignored, dismissed, unwanted, neglected, or actively repulsed. You are acting as individuals, coupling up and organizing in a transactional way, co-operating only to the extent that you get your own needs met in the process.
You are experiencing the pain of it in vast numbers now. You've found many ways to feel better for awhile, but your fundamental anxiety always returns.
Question: Why?
Answer: Because it's fundamental to an isolated individual. It means you always feel incomplete, inadequate, in need of things from others, while always feeling the angst of competition.
It's time for all this to change. This game of individuation is fast coming to an end.
Question: What comes next?
Answer: What comes next is true co-operation, where the whole point is fun, play, enjoyment. The basis is complete confidence in your (our) source, your (our) origin in the cosmos.
Every one of the people you've been pushing against or trying to pull toward you are the same as you. You're all manifestations of our source, playing at being individual humans. In essence, you are fighting with yourself! Trying to get yourself to act differently toward you or to please you. You're wrestling with yourself.
Time to drop all that. Drop your armor, your shield, your sword, your lance. Stop pushing and pulling.
Stop expecting others to please you, when most others are still deeply immersed in the individuation game. Start playing the new game of unity.
Stop holding others to blame for how you're feeling, when your bad feelings arise from your complete immersion in the individuation game. Your bad feelings are an indicator that you're on the wrong track, operating from some outdated programming, lost in the game.
Question: What is the new game we're about to play on this planet?
Answer: Unity. Community.
Question: But isn't that the state of our source? Why shift from infinite pieces to a single, unified whole?
Answer: No, you misunderstand. We are gradually reuniting to form something new, a new experience, a new game, beyond individuation.
Question: Nope. I still don't get it.
[And there I left it for the day. There's only so much I can absorb in one session.]
What comes next is true co-operation,
where the whole point is fun, play, enjoyment.
The basis is complete confidence in our source.
The Game
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Christine King
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