Dare to ...
Question: What happened the other day? Another hard depression! Why? What was this latest one about? It came the morning after a wonderful meditation in which I allowed my greater self to expand without limits. Why, then, did I/my mind slam shut with a hard clang the next morning? What was the message this particular depression was trying to give me?
Answer: You are enough.
Question: Nope. That's not it. All through the day I was feeling the intense sadness of thwarted desires. Not only is it not here yet, but there's no sign and no guarantee that it even is coming. I felt lied to, misled — yet again.
What a fool I've been to think that I can play a different game from everyone else and have it turn out the way I want. Why are you misleading me so? And if I am you, and you are me, then why are you doing such a stupid thing? What's the point in hurting yourself/me/us again and again in this way? This is just stupid.
Answer: Are you done yet? Is there more you want to get out, to get off your chest? Because this is important. It'll be the single biggest hurdle for most other people who attempt what you're doing — that is, after the monumental hurdle of coming to believe that you really can have the life you want.
Time. It's your biggest bugbear, isn't it. How long things take to materialize, to be completed. Time. ”How long, O Lord?!”
We've talked about this before: how there isn't really any such thing as time. It is always now.
Even the past is something that is happening now whenever you think about it.
Even the future is happening now whenever you think about it. In fact, that's the way to create the future you want: by thinking about it in the present, by enjoying the idea of it now.
It really is as simple as that, because every action you take on the strength of it, from that foundation, serves to make it a reality. You can enjoy the feeling of it now — and it is always now — while you're making it a reality (which also happens now).
Just as a tree grows — slowly, even imperceptibly — it is always a tree, and it is always growing into/toward being a larger tree. In every moment that you observe it (in the now), it appears to be unchanging, yet it is always both the same and ever changing.
Question: Nope. I don't get the tree thing. I do get that I can enjoy the idea of the things I want now and in this way make decisions and take actions that help bring it into being.
I also see that I've been waiting on others — for example, agents and publishers — to get me what I want. I've been dependent on the decisions and actions of others, so they've been the limiting factors — in fact, the holders and holders-off of my destiny. In my mind, I need them to give it to me
or enable its creation. And in my mind, they're withholding it from me because they don't see any value in my work, in promoting me. Would you talk about that, please, about the involvement/necessity of others in my creation.
Answer: Yes. It's not necessary. Oh, it's not that you can/should/must/would be best served by doing it yourself. That's not it. I mean that it's not necessary for others to share your vision or want to create with you or help you create your vision. Others may be involved as co-operative elements — but it may be in the most unlikely of ways, not how you may expect.
Your expectations for the mechanics of creating your vision are holding you back and blocking your peace and forward momentum toward your goal. Let go of all expectations for how it comes about.
Focus instead on what you want to create for yourself and what you will do with it. Then leave the rest — the realization of it — to the creative power of the universe. Because it is — we are — creating through you. You can't hurry it along without interfering.
Don't sweat how long it seems to be taking or how little progress you see. Just keep on enjoying the idea of it. And keep looking past it, as if you already have it, to what you want to be doing with it. Why do you want it — not why do you think you deserve it or why does it have value; what do you want to do with it? What enjoyment do you want to get from it, and can you enjoy that feeling and those images now?
The thing about the tree you see out your window is that it's a mental image you have of a form which is always changing. It appears relatively static (most of the time) because its changes are slow, gradual. It appears very solid — and it certainly is if it falls on your head! Yet it is as alive, lively, and as ever-changing as can be!
The issue you have with time is with the gap you perceive between the idea, the thought, of a thing and the completion of the thing in material form. But while it may take months, years, decades, even centuries (e.g., cathedrals) to complete something in physical form, you can be enjoying the idea of it right now and at every point between conception and completion.
In fact, the fastest route to completion is continual pleasant anticipation of it through continual focus on it.
It will trip you up to focus on the steps involved in creating the thing. It will trip you up the most to limit yourself to others' paths to the same goal. There are infinite ways to achieve your goals. There are as many different ways as there are individual minds contemplating them.
The best advice/guidance I can give you right now, in your presently stuck state, your present focus on current human conventions (ways and means) is this: give up! ☺︎
I say that with a wink and a smile because what I really mean is this: you will lose your way and greatly hamper the creative process by focusing on the steps as taken by others.
Dare to go your own way.
Dare to be open to finding a tremendous shortcut or an alternate route which takes you somewhere completely unexpected and vastly more enjoyable, satisfying, and expansive than where you thought you were going when you first set out.
Dare to focus not on the what and the how, but on the why…
And dare to let your dream change.
Dare to go your own way.
Dare to be open to finding an alternate route.
Dare to focus on the why…
And dare to let your dream change.
The Game
hide seek find laugh
Christine King
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